The Split and the veil

On the way to work about a week after the presidential election, I saw a small picture of Donald Trump on a local posting spot while driving through the small college town. I realized folks were trying to get on board with getting behind the man, what is going to be for the kingdom within the next four years. This need to accept has been the way of society for so long. We feel we need to find a way to be part of the whole, to reign ourselves into the crowd, to back our leader, and find some way to be proud of it. But, it looks to be a low and small kind of acceptance as of now.

Before the election, before the campaigns, I felt the pull to sharpen myself and become more centered in my power. I started Warrior Goddess Training two years ago which led me to find much more of myself. Before that, even as a teenager thirty years ago, I was rebellious and searched tirelessly and often painfully for greater meaning. Looking back at all my years of being on this earth, I can see how I was setting up to be encompassing my rising authenticity now.

I see the split in society that was felt but was unclear before. Just as stated in the Bible, in the end people will stand against one another even within their own family. In silence this is taking place. I believe this has happened before. As we know, cycles happen over and over throughout time. Everything that happens is for the purpose of cleaning, bringing us into the new.

I feel more seated in my essence than ever before. This seems to be a great time for me to be. With my heart softened but clear, I ride through life under my veil. This veil is my container. Inside it holds all of me. I am not in hiding. I am a meant-to-be purposeful Goddess  shining forth with open arms to anything and anyone. When I’m silent I do so from choice, no longer through fear. The anger I used to carry has fallen by the wayside. I embrace what is now. Yes, I am rising now.

In the midst of this training session, life, for the first time, I know there is nothing to hold onto. And, I am glad in it. Before there was the hope that we are all together as a people. The innocence in me believed that in the end I would be saved, that I was ultimately a precious part of them, the ones in power, and that they would save me. Now, I am grateful for the unveiling of the truth, that I save me.

Part of what had strengthened me is use of my core. Through my yoga I operate from my core for the most power. From our center comes our self trust. It increases once the veil has been lifted from it. This happens little by little, practice after practice. Day by day we become stronger, but not without challenges that cause us to doubt our power, abandon our power, give away our power, fight for our power, then finally hone in on our power, welcoming ourselves home.

I unveiled myself inside unto myself. And, am continuing to do so. I feel grounded, calm, aware, and fully alive. I feel my power and am grateful for it, and respectful of it. The veil is, now, around the outside of me, not hiding me from me anymore. I can see through it, feel through it, communicate through it, live through it. I can put it on and take it off. I am in control. As a result, I am capable of helping others, and doing my work; my art, my life here.  

May all women unveil the inside to place around the outside of our precious Selves. Let’s go forth and do our work, search, play, build, and truly live. The splits between people will one day dissipate, just as our inside veils do as we accept and love ALL of ourselves. Until then, go forth in all your glorious power!

-Leahanne Woods Smith