June 21st, 2017

My heart is so small…

My heart is so small, it is almost invisible. How can you place such big sorrows in it? Look, he answered, your eyes are even smaller yet they behold the world. ~ Rumi

I’m feeling my tender heart today — loss, love, grief, gratitude. All of it, waves of the ocean flowing through me. Life is so, so precious. Sometimes I want to grasp, to hold onto what I’ve had, to try and make the deep, poignant connections in my life stay fixed, never change. And yet things do change. I open my hands and let go, trusting the process, without avoiding the big sorrows of loss and grief. They, too, are beautiful.

Here in a new city, I’m having waves of feeling alone and waves of total connection. I’m embracing both, relishing the sensations and dichotomies. Last night it rained here, hard, and this morning the air was so clear, everything washed clean.

Each day is a new beginning. And on this eve of Summer Solstice (the wheel of the season turns a little past midnight on the east coast) I’m honoring the endings and beginnings, the beginnings and endings. Cycles. All part of loving more.

One more quote for today for all my beloveds out there who are hurting or in transition:

Whatever happens in your life, no matter how troubling things might seem, do not enter the neighborhood of despair. Even when all doors remain closed, God will open up a new path for you. Be thankful! It is easy to be thankful when all is well. A Sufi is thankful not only for what he has been given, but also for all that he has been denied. ~ Forty rules of love, Shams of Tabriz.

I love you. Blessed day, sweet ones. Blessed Solstice.