finding spirit’s voice


Written by Dina Tibbs

​Earlier this week I was just getting ready to hit the send button on a blog post that told my story and how I was feeling related to all that is going on right now. It was fierce; no question. It was a resurfacing of things I worked through many years ago, because I have been in a spiritual growth process for decades. I was triggered and I thought I was above being triggered. Before I hit that button my beloved and some teachers gave me some wisdom that I took to heart, and sometimes being an observer does not mean being meek, but means I am standing in my power and listening to spirit.

In many spiritual traditions you learn that this life is an experiment, it is an illusion; the lens of perception and experiences that we see through creates our stories, but it is not our spirit’s voice. It is not who we are; it does not have to be our story.

It is easy to let the current political environment and rhetoric steer us from our sacred assignment. Fear, anger, distress, even joy for those who feel like things are going in the right direction, and all of the other emotions we are feeling right now are all valid, and are for many of us a wake up call, a message from spirit that perhaps we fell asleep behind the wheel. What we do with those messages from our spirit is where the rubber meets the road.

You may have heard the saying:

“We are spiritual beings having a human experience. “

Nothing could be more true. What experience will your spirit have in this life? What is your sacred assignment? Getting quiet and listening….truly listening to the answer is the first step to living in alignment, and not letting any of these stories that are not yours steer you from your path.

I often struggle with the response to the question “What do you do?” when meeting new people. My wonderfully wise spiritual mentor Santi Devi said the response should always be:

“I do being human.”  

The practices I study and that I teach to other women are not exclusive to women (although that is who I work with and they are practices that women do not find easy), and they are not exclusive to men, they are exclusive to humans. The Toltec traditions and shamanic traditions, from which these practices come, are designed to awaken humanity to their spirit’s voice.

My spirit’s voice is telling me that while I could have spoken out fiercely and engaged in a lot of heated discussion, the result would be that my energy would be severely depleted and it would not serve to keep me going on my sacred assignment, which is to help women awaken, find their own spiritual voices and birth their own stories. To be in service to as many women who need my help in doing so. I am a creator, a midwife of spirit, a weaver. This is how I serve humanity.

The time is now to embrace each other as sisters and humans, and come together in community.

If you are a woman in Denver and you would like to learn how to:

·      Witness and listen to yourself deeply
·      Love all of your being
·      Find your voice
·      Discover and release the agreements that no longer serve you
·      Re-write your story
·      Become the creators of your lives

The Importance of Sacred Time

Written by Leahanne Woods Smith

What are you doing with your time?

It’s easy to get bogged down with endless duties that take a lot of time. It’s also easy to use our precious time doing time wasting activities when we could be doing something truly nourishing for us. It’s all a choice in the moment. It’s so important for us to be mindful of using our time for sacredness as much as possible.

Sacred time is when we are doing the activities that light up our life. Examples of sacred time include, but are not limited to, meditating, writing, doing an art project you’ve been dreaming of doing, sex, group discussions, and activities that lead to self discovery. And, sometimes the best sacred time is simply time spent alone not doing.

Examples of wasting time could be scrolling through Facebook, getting caught up in gossip, spending time with people who already served their purpose with you through force of habit, or out of fear of change. There are times when we feel disconnected from where we can change because we have been wasting too much time. When we do this we begin to feel like we cannot trust ourselves to make good decisions. We lose self esteem this way.

Staying aware of staying in sacred time as much as possible builds our self confidence. And, every act we do in taking time for ourselves to be in sacredness puts another notch onto the pole of self-trust. The further we climb the more we can see. Our intuition becomes more present for us because we are more present. This is like opening our own door to ourselves and out to the world. Here we feel connected and in the flow. Things that we really want seem to come more effortlessly.

Deepak Chopra talks about this in some of his guided meditations, or in his talks about how we actually gain more knowledge and clarity through effortlessness. It is often our instinct to press harder, and give more effort. But, it is through the softest opening that the most power comes through.

Through staying aware and making more sacred time, the effortless pleasures and gifts come. It is just as when a woman lets go of her fear that she cannot get pregnant, she gets pregnant. And, when we go on a journey with a likeminded group to learn and experience more of life, we are in sacred time. Here is where we will have multitudes of realizations and signs that lead to many of the answers that our soul has asked. Here is where we feel limitless and most alive!

In sacred time, gifts of direction comes. This is our intuition. What is natural in us is revealed. It is revealed to us through our allowing it. We allow it through acceptance. Through more acceptance, more capacity for self compassion comes. Self compassion is a choice. We can make the choice to love ourselves everyday to stay within sacred time.

When we look at ourselves in the mirror, we can choose to love ourselves no matter if our image fits the standards of what looks good to others or not.

When we go to bed, and when we wake up in the morning, we can choose to lovingly hold our bodies and love them to life. This is another way to ensure more awareness, and sacred time. Our bodies hold so much wisdom. They will tell us by feel when we are in sacred time, and when we are wasting time.  Stay close. Listen close.

May we honor ourselves by staying in sacred time more often!

What gives you pure joy?
Do more of that!?❤?

​Lilith: The Original Warrior Goddess 


​by Monette Chilson
As we seek to claim our place in the world as warrior goddesses, we need to look for guidance from those who came before us. So many of our agreements—those that serve us and those that don’t—were transmitted to us through a larger consciousness, one that dates back to the dawn of time.
Unfortunately, the vast majority of that past is recorded as his story (history) rather than her story (herstory). We are missing many of the strong female archetypes who embody the warrior goddess spirit. They may not be well documented, but bits and pieces of them survived because women and men told the stories to each other, weaving threads of goddess warriorship through the tapestry that is humanity.
Whether or not you personally come from a Judaic Christian background, if you live in the Western world, you have absorbed its tenets because they pervade our culture. You may not logically believe that Eve was our female progenitor, but we have been conditioned to accept Eve as our archetypal understanding of the world’s original woman.
Think about what kind of agreements we can inherit from that understanding. Eve being created as a helper for Adam could translate into, “My needs are secondary to my husband or boyfriend’s needs.” Eve’s portrayal as weak and more easily deceived could become an agreement that says, “I can’t trust my instincts because they will lead me and others astray.”
These agreements don’t serve us. We need a new understanding of what it means to be a women. We need to reclaim our ancient archetypes, stating with the lost legend of Lilith.
It turns out that there are two different versions of humanity’s origins in the Bible. In the first, God created men and women together from the same earth. The were co-heirs. In the second, woman was carved out of man’s rib. She was his helper.
Rabbis pondered this and proposed in their midrashic writings that there were two different women. The first one—Lilith—was not interested in submitting to Adam and left the garden, replaced by the more malleable Eve.
While this story does provide an example of a woman who was true to herself despite great pressure to conform to another’s expectations, it did not remain untainted. Instead, it was twisted. Lilith became a monster who was unsuitable to serve of the world’s matriarch. She was demonized, quite literally. Woman took to chanting “Lilith Abi”—Lilith, go away—to keep her from stealing the souls of their babies. All this because she refused to give up her essence to another. Imagine the implications of integrating this idea—that women are not women, but are monsters, for daring to follow their hearts.
So, I put myself in Lilith’s place. I breathed in her spirit and listened, and I wrote what I heard. I wrote a story of a woman who yearned for a loving partnership with a man; who wanted to contribute in meaningful ways to her world; and who struggled mightily with the sacrifice that would be required of her whether she stayed or left. I felt her pain when she made the difficult decision to leave behind the garden and the only man on earth. My heart broke for the way people treated her after she left.
It is not a story that presents the warrior goddess way as simple and painless, but it does present it as one in which a woman is true to her deepest self.
As I reflected on HeatherAsh Amara’s Warrior Goddess Creed (reprinted below), I realized that in Lilith, we have an example to follow. We have an archetypal woman who is aligned with the creed and can illuminate our own path. By reclaiming Lilith, we can reclaim a lost part of ourselves.
Warrior Goddess Creed
I hereby commit fully to embody my Warrior Goddess self.
From this moment forward, I will do my best to:
Love all of my being
Appreciate the beginnings and the endings
Honor my body and my mind as a temple
Stay grounded and present
Cultivate my passions and creativity
Own my strength and vulnerability
Open my heart to all of life
Speak my deepest truths
Listen to the wisdom within
Claim my unique path
And walk the Warrior Goddess Way.
Monette is an award-winning writer whose work celebrates the feminine in God and God in the feminine.
My Name is Lilith (The Girl God, 2017)—part of a series on strong women in mythology and theology—is her first children’s book. Her first book, Sophia Rising: Awakening Your Sacred Wisdom Through Yoga (Bright Sky Press, 2013), explores how yoga deepens the contemplative spiritual experience. She has contributed to numerous anthologies and has written for Yoga Journal, Integral Yoga Magazine, Elephant Journal, Om Times and Progressive Christianity.    /   @MonetteChilson on Twitter & Instagram

the collective oil is rising: a warrior goddess cry for love and forgiveness


By: Sarina Harz, LMSW, Certified Warrior Goddess Facilitator, and Darkness Doula
Photo Credit: Elena Ray

As we entered the new year, I was filled with anticipation around how I wanted to feel in 2017. I followed the same magical process I did at this time last year: setting intentions and action plans, cleaning out my closet, filling out my new planner, lighting candles every day while making a wish or prayer, and identifying my Core Desired Feelings. As I wrote the words, I was so excited to be inviting them into my life: Shakti, magical, daring, volcanic, and integrity. Yet, there we were, over a month of the way into 2017 and I wanted to hide under a rock. It wasn’t until the Spring Equinox that I really began to feel into the intentions I set. I have been feeling the attacks on the divine feminine and the Divine Mother and I am outraged. I am simultaneously paralyzed with hopelessness and despair. How can this be happening? Then a friend invited me to re-examine my Core Desired Feelings, “Is that not what you are feeling?” she asked. I took a step back and suspended my judgement for a moment—suspended my assumptions. SHAKTI. MAGICAL. DARING. VOLCANIC. INTEGRITY. She was correct. I am feeling those things, they simply aren’t what I imagined they would look like. These feelings are showing up in the way they amalgamate together. They are fiery and transformative. They also dance with the darkness. There is this nuanced experience about them that I had so conveniently forgotten. The universe was asking me to face the barriers I had in my life via my Core Desired Feelings. It was asking me not to make assumptions and consider the lessons that lay before me. . .the firewalks that lay ahead. It was beckoning me to face my fears around the messiness of being human and walking the warrior goddess way.
What I am experiencing is not unlike what many other people are experiencing around the world. This is not about the election or the new president or anything in particular. This is about the consistent string of wounded energy from all sides. We are bombarded every day with streams of hate, division, and struggle. We are faced with the unraveling of humanity. We are experiencing the rising of the collective oil.
The collective oil is the gunk of things that have been lying dormant. It is the darkness we pretend does not exist in the world. It is covered by plastic smiles of positivity and washed out by fads of “just get over it” and “everything will be alright” with sprinkles of “just love and light”. It’s the spiritual bypassing. In the trenches of each of our souls is the stuff we are ashamed of. It is the playground of our inner judge and victim. Over time, it festers and grows. It continues to collect until we can no longer stand it. HeatherAsh tells a story of a pan of oil. Typically, we refer to this as an individual experience, however as we can see around us, there is also a collective one. As we begin to find our warrior goddess way, we can imagine pure water flowing into our individual containers and this is exactly what we need to do as a collective community now.
Consider this an invitation to face your firewalks. An invitation to see what assumptions you (or we as humans) are holding onto about the barriers before us. An invitation to acknowledge the running gremlin tapes of stories we have made up to put up blocks in our own way. Consider this an invitation to suspend your own worldview, even if just for a moment, to see the humanity in us all—the messiness of fear, love, and passion that drives each of us. It is all energy and at the end of the day, that is all there is. We can use that energy to drive us forward and to raise us up so we will rise from the ashes. You can use the energy to create change in your own life.
It is so frequently forgotten that the elements are our allies, that we can seek solace in them and combine our energy with theirs. I’ve compiled a list of ways to use the elements as allies in our daily lives so that we can prepare for the journey within ourselves and also for the one out into our community to take inspired action in these turbulent times. Here is a short guide on how to breathe some space back into your world and to lighten the weight of the world:
Move. Each day allow your body to experience a range of motion, whether that is stretching, yoga, running, swimming, dancing, etc. Getting into your body is a great way to get out of your head and the stories we tell ourselves. Touch your feet to the earth, feel the air as you run or walk, dive into the water, and feel the burn as you move. Allow yourself to commune with the elements in whatever way feels playful and good.
Hydrate. Drink lots of water to nourish your cells. Our cells are waiting to carrying life deep into our bodies to awaken the wisdom that lies within. Acknowledging Grandmother Ice (Water) while you are drinking her can even deeper your relationship with this nourishing source being.
Get Still. Take time to be still and quiet. Sometimes, having the world in our palms is overwhelming and noisy. Give yourself permission to put down your phone, shut down your computer, close your eyes, and open your intuition. Doing this outside on the ground is a special way to connect with Mother Earth. Open yourself to her wisdom. Listen to the wind as you sit still. What messages does it have for you? Feel the sun on your bare skin. What does Grandfather Fire want to say as you bask in his sunshine?
Forgive. Finally, invite yourself to find forgiveness to all that is hurting. In Warrior Goddess Way, HeatherAsh talks about the wisdom of forgiveness. She describes big forgiveness and small forgiveness. It can be freeing to use the element of water to help you through this process. Allow her to wash away that which is hurting, holding you down, and keeping you in the swamplands of despair. Anytime you wash your hands or shower or clean the house, imagine the water is washing away all the areas where forgiveness is ripe in you. And for all those places you aren’t ready for yet? Love them fiercely for they are trying to keep you safe.
These tips are what keep me grounded and open during these times of uncertainty and chaos. It is my wish that as this collective oil rises we honor it by continuing to lean into the discomfort of this courageous, daring work. We are on this path together and if we can each hold onto the humanity in ourselves by practicing forgiveness and loving everything with our whole heart, perhaps we have a chance of getting this collective oil to continue pouring out to purify our vessel so we can heal our planet and support the divine feminine as she nourishes all of us. 

my video game just schooled me on old agreements!

By Angela McPherson

Stepping out of my Gamer closet, in my first ever admission outside of my friends and family…yes…I play Warcraft as part of my self care and recreation!

One of the “old agreements” I am working on clearing is “I need to be perfect 100% of the time.” I must live up to unattainable goals I have set for myself and the agreements that have been put upon me to carry.  

Heaven forbid I am not good enough, or perceived not good enough.

These agreements transfer into all aspects of your life, including gaming. When Warcraft introduced Transmogrification (able to wear the look of clothes you like on current content gear), I was ecstatic, “now I can look how I want to look” all the time. There’s that 100%…yes!

Well…to fight as a casting druid, you have to be in Boomkin form, which is a fat, dumpy chicken like bird that runs with its feet pointed out as it waddles…not the epitome of sleek, fit, sexiness that society has put upon women nor the framework put upon me by the high performance sport world I lived in for 30 years.

I hated playing “Boomy” and would turn back into “night elf” form as soon as I could, and at some points over the years, refused to play her in fighting form as she was mainly a healer (go figure lol).

The training I am taking with HeatherAsh Amara (author of Warrior Goddess Training) has me focusing on letting go and transforming a lot of these agreements I have made with myself and I’m learning to love ALL of me…and the weak parts…I am loving more.

This afternoon, I spent some time power leveling Isis (my druid) with a friend, and didn’t take the time to switch her back to night elf form very much and the thought process started while watching her.

“Love her for who she is and what she looks like right now.”  

She is a bad ass warrior! She can self heal! She fills the room when she shows up! She is loved by her guild and her friends! SHE CAN TAKE ON THE FORM OF MANY DIFFERENT ANIMALS! FUCK YA! Who gives a shit if she’s a little heavy and rolly polly sometimes. She is loved no matter what she looks like.

And then it happened…my guildie and I getting ready to fight our target…my stereo starts playing “Confident” by Demi Lovato. I turn it up, and make Isis dance, killing myself laughing as she’s almost in beat with the music. I sat grooving in my chair, integrating my new agreement into my body as she danced.

My guildie pulls the bad guy…I’m dancing and not paying attention…I get hit and get blown off the mountain while Demi is singing “What’s wrong with being, what’s wrong with being confident?”  

And guess what? SHE LIVED!!!!! Fucking BAD ASS warrior of light!

The timing of the whole interaction was epic…and here’s the thing…the Universe uses a bunch of modalities to shake us awake.


And in my case, this afternoon the Universe used Isis to send me the message <3.

So time to integrate that lesson into my own life.  

“I am a bad ass warrior of light, just as I am, in this moment.”

“I am able to self heal and transform anything in my life that no longer serves me.”

“What’s wrong with being confident?”  Absolutely nothing <3

Letting go

By Noel Nguyen, Warrior Goddess Facilitator

There are a few people who misunderstand the meaning of “Letting Go” or “Let Go.” I want to be clear that Letting Go is different for everyone. It depends on where you are on your path, journey, and self-discovery. It does not mean let go of your family, friends, commitments, and be selfish or self-centered. It is quite the opposite of that. Please continue to read so that I may help you understand what I mean.

Sometimes there are certain words or actions that may cause a deep trigger deep within you that causes a mental or physical response. Maybe, just maybe you have an unconscious agreement that you may or may not be aware of causing you pain. For example, If I say to you “you are not good enough” does that resonate deep inside you. Just like if I were to tell you “Just Let it Go” does that make you feel like you are not taking ownership of the issue or that it is not important to you?

In HeatherAsh Amara’s books Warrior Goddess TrainingThe Toltec Path of Transformation, and Warrior Goddess Way they will help teach you about conscious and unconscious agreements, repetitive patterns, stories you have been telling yourself. She will help teach you the tools and techniques to let go of the old stories, agreements, judgements, and triggers that are causing you to be stuck in a certain way of thinking. 

When we say “Let Go” it is letting go of the false beliefs that you are not enough, that you are not loved, that the old stories and agreements you used to tell yourself are true maybe are not. Let me give you an example to make sure I am telling the story properly. 

I was abandoned at birth during the end of the Vietnam war. I could choose to tell myself one story that would say “I am not good enough, I am not worthy of love, and I am like trash.” Then if I were to live my life with this story I was telling myself I may not have healthy relationships, maybe addictions, or maybe worse and cause mental and/or physical pain to myself.

Alternatively, I could choose a different way. I could learn to “Let Go.” I could learn to let go of the beliefs and I could start to change my story. I was given up for adoption so that I could have a better life. My mother chose to sacrifice her own daughter hoping that I could have a better life without Communism, War, and Poverty. I must have been very important to make a sacrifice like this to give me my best chance. I am so worthy of the best life I could possibly have. I am so worthy of loving myself and others because I am someone special. I am a gift to myself, life, and others. 

What I do choose to do is “Let Go” of the belief and old story that I have been telling myself for years. What this does not mean is that now that I know what I need to release and let go that I am releasing my family, husband, or any other obligations.

What it does mean is that I am releasing that old energy that has been stuck. I am releasing those false stories and negative energy inside. I am open to receive new stories, beliefs, and opportunities. I will be able to be more than I can imagine when I free myself from these old stories, patterns, and beliefs. I am more open to love myself and others and be the best wife, mother, and friend.

Please don’t make assumptions on others and where they are at in their journey. This journey is about where we are inside us and only us. It is not a competition and it is not a cult or religion. It is about being the best you possible with some tools and techniques that will help you discover the best you there can be for you. And in the end it will be better for you and your family and friends.

who is your master?

By Leahanne Woods Smith

When I was in Teotihuacan this past summer for the Women’s Journey with HeatherAsh Amara, we were put through different exercises. These were exercises in remembering our spirit on a deeper level. To do this we went to a part of Teotihuacan each day. We learned of the history of the Toltecs, the ancient ones whose tactics, strategies, and lessons of gaining more freedom we strive to emulate today.

On the last day of the journey we went to The Temple Of The Butterflies. Here was a place that looked like ancient apartments. It’s a plaza of sectioned off living spaces. These were living spaces of the more or less kind of royal families of the who lived back then, as well as Pumas, and Masters.

The Masters are said to have been able to defy all obstacles and do unbelievable things like leave their body behind at the door and go as their pure spirit into the room. We were told to go around the place and visit all the rooms and feel which room resonates with us the most. Then, we were to see what master showed up for us there.

I walked into one of the rooms with no roof, and simply a hard stone “bench” made of the same stone as the floor in it. I knew this was the one for me. There were thirty of us, and for a long time period I was the only one in this room. It was as if all time and current situations were paused. I began to feel sort of a supernatural essence fill me. I turned into my power consciously. I knew I was being filled with a Kung fu Master. I have trained in Kung Fu in the small town where I live. I was connected to this by working with the Sifu at a nursing home. He was trained by a master in Philadelphia as a young boy and continued all his life. He started the Hung Gar Kung Fu Academy in my home town. What we learn at Hung Gar Kung Fu Academy are not only lessons in physical fighting strategies, but lessons of the heart in life with all of life, similar to the Toltecs. It is an ancient family lineage called the Hung Gar in southern China. This was brought to me. I was just barely open-eyed enough to see it and go for it. What a miraculous gift!

It’s funny how we are called to things and we feel it. We just know that this is what we are supposed to be doing to go further into our next greatest things.

I would have never guessed that a Kung fu Master would show up for me in Teotihuacan ten years ago. But, it happened. And, I began to feel myself as a direct descendant of the Warrior, the kind that can defy all gravity, move any obstacle, and live fully from the heart of truth and wisdom.

Right then and there, I saluted in the traditional way of the Hung Gar lineage. I knew I was saluting my master, and to the master I was becoming in myself.

Later that day, we traveled to The Pyramid Of The Sun. We were told to stay connected to the womb, and stay quiet to deeply feel for our experiences. We were also told to be careful of the edges as we winded around the pyramid in ascending toward the top.

HeatherAsh walked the edge. She looked supernaturally light as if she was confident that she could just fly whenever she needed or wanted to. I recognized that she has become her own master, and in that she can master the elements. She was like a butterfly. When following her around the Pyramid Of The Sun, I realized that I was following my master. She, like the Kung Fu Master, were both beings who showed up for me. When I just couldn’t pass over buying the Warrior Goddess Training book one day when I saw it on Facebook, it was a gift from the Gods/Goddesses who have been watching me. It was spirit’s answer to my internal longings for more, and it was, too, just simply my intention once I got whiff of its grand power. It catapulted me into a place where I could begin to know myself as a master. As I walked with the group, following HeatherAsh, I felt my Warrior power fully, and I realized that I was a butterfly too.

Little by little we clean away those things that clog up our temple from the truth. In the end, we are our own Warrior, our own Goddess, our own Master of Love encompassing all the elements. We can move mountains or fly off them at any time. We only need to remember and strive to live more fully everyday as our authentic selves.

Getting to know ourselves as our own master is just one of the aspects of Warrior Goddess Training.  May we continue our journey, and bring others around us into fuller belief!

magic midway mirrors

I applied for the Karma program at the Bikram studio that I like to go to, and got it!  The Karma program consists of cleaning the studio once a week for yoga anytime.  I’ve bought the five time passes that most yoga facilities offer in the area, and I liked the Lake Norman Bikram studio best.  Mostly I do yoga alone at home outside.  Yoga is one of my loves that I’ve found that I never want to be without.  I plan to keep going and go through a teacher training program next year.  I loved the energy and the instructors at Bikram.  I told told of all of this in the email when I applied.  And, there was something about those mirrors.  Well, I was chosen!

As the instructor/owner of Lake Norman Bikram Yoga says, “Concentrate, meditate, look at your own eyes in the mirror.  Every class I’ve taken at Bikram, this is what I’ve done.  I’ve found that we humans often think we look one way when we really look another way, ways that we are not seeing.  We see from our current perception.  We see though old stories still lingering around in our psyche about ourselves, who we think we are, how well we think we’re doing based on some current influenced mindset.  And, fortunately we see ourselves as doing well, going for things, in control of our lives.  This is the mindset which I have been seeing myself more often in the past few years.

I have always been one who reaches farther, outside of my normal patterns, for greatness.  That fantasy that many people have of being a lead singer on stage, well I did that!  I made it happen!  Now, I have not reached what most would call fame, but hey! I felt what it’s like to sing on stage, connect to an audience, and grow my art of it from there.  This is one of the things that I’ve gone for, that if I hadn’t gone for, I would not have the level of belief in myself that I do, most of the time, now.

It’s about the feeling.  To gain belief in oneself, I believe that you have to actually do the act that you want to do.  Understanding how it feels to try and miss the mark, try and get better, try again and soar, try again and fall again, is essential to truly gaining experience.  All of us have to do it.  If a baby bird never tries to fly, it will not.  And, it will miss out on it’s full flight of life.  May we all feel our full flight of life!  May we not allow the films of our perceptions in our mind to keep us from trying that which is our instinct and our deepest heart’s desires.  It is our birth rite to go through every experience we feel we need for ourselves!

In the spring of 2014, I found Warrior Goddess Training while flipping through Facebook.  I am not an easy sell, but there was something about that book I saw advertised.  My soul quickly captured and said to me, “Do not let this get away.  There are big things here for you!”.  I listened and bought the book.

Through Warrior Goddess Training I’ve uncovered much more of myself, and found more things in life that light me up.  I’ve gone for many of those things.  And, things that I had on the back burner that I knew I wanted, but was probably never going to go for, I am going for now!

The way Warrior Goddess Training works is by showing us the ancient and forgotten way that women loved, honored and believed in themselves.  There are a lot of lessons in accepting ourselves as we are on a deeper level in Warrior Goddess Training.  So much of what society shows is that we are not good enough the way we are.  Warrior Goddess Training unleashes the truth which is that we are not only good enough, but we are the best miracle that’s ever happened!  We are powerful!  We are not broken.  We do not need to be fixed.  We are a solid life form who has carried herself through the ages, and have been great warriors for eons.  Through Warrior Goddess Training, we remember ourselves!

Everything is connected.  And, once we start to trust ourselves and go for the desires we have, more opportunities show up in the direction that we most want to go.  Over time we get better at reading the signs.  We get better at believing. We follow our intuition more.  We widen our sight and our doorways for synchronicity.  One of the things that I’ve gone for more since going for Warrior Goddess Training is more yoga.

When I showed up for a list of duties and instruction to clean the Bikram studio, I was shown these mirrors in closer detail.  I was told that my major duty would be to clean them.  Cleaning a huge room full floor to ceiling mirrors would not be an easy task.  I was shown how to look at them from the floor up using the glare from the light to ensure that there were no smudges.  If there were smudges, streaks, or spots after using the squeegee, I was to polish them with water and special towels.  Which, I have found myself doing on a regular basis.  And, I have gotten more particular and quicker to see the spots, as we do with anything over time and practice.

The first night cleaning the mirrors I had a hard time getting the squeegee to get the water off clean without leaving streaks.  I realized that I would have to start at the very top and shoot it down, then shoot the squeegee from one side of the mirror once it was midway to leave no evidence from where it started.  Then the rest could be polished with the special cloths.  I got my time down from two hours to one hour.  And, I got my confidence down from unsure to pretty darn certain.  This is just the way with anything in life.  It just takes walking our way up to it, making our willful steps to the challenging things, and beginning.  The more we do this, the more of the warrior we find in ourselves.  And, the rest is tell tale techniques that become evident to us as we go.  This is the journey of the warrior.  We are ever getting clearer as long as we continue.  This is how it is in yoga.  If we cannot get into the full expression of the pose, we go toward it with our intent and do our best.  And, we accept and learn who we are in a deeper way there, in the active alchemical midst, the midway, the best part of the journey.

Midway through cleaning the mirrors one night after getting my technique down, I noticed my strokes, and the way I moved my body quickly and precisely from one side to the other, reminded me of Kung Fu.  I took Kung Fu training for a while, and plan to go back to it.  This was another thing I went for in life that was often hard, but raised my confidence level.  I was reminded of this, and began to pride myself with these expert-ish moving the squeegee on the mirror Kung Fu style.  Then, using the polishing cloths it was like Daniel in “The Karate Kid”, wax on wax off.☺.  I realized I was becoming my own warrior on a deeper level with these new cleaning and polishing skills I was learning.  And, at that moment my warrior self took presidency, a powerful, and fun state came over my being.  I enjoyed this feeling as I watched my eyes in the mirror.  Every stroke, becoming clearer was my focus.  Along with the mirrors, I too was getting clearer.  Into clearer focus I am becoming each step, each strife, each effort, each time I have fun with it.  Every time I listened to my own voice inside that told me to go for something I wanted, a streak was cleared.  Every time I’ve gone for my goals despite their inconvenience to my life, another spot was cleaned.  Every time I’ve stood in the mirror facing the truths of my midway state, I’ve cleared the way wider than ever.  Every time I’ve finished cleaning the mirrors for the night knowing I’ve done the best I could possibly do, a new doorway appears that I’ve never seen.  And, more trust and respect for myself emerges.  The doorway was always there, but was out of focus because the mirrors had to be cleaned first.  All things have order.  To further find our greatness we must start step by brave step, never giving up, never putting down our sword or our squeegee until we are clear.  And, to keep the clarity, we must do constant cleaning.  Through all of life there is no ceasing.  We must practice.  We will find new ways to clean along the way.  We will create new pathways to greatness.  We will always uncover new parts of our warrior, for she is never ending.  She is life!

I’ve done lots of mirror work in Warrior Goddess Training in other self-help spiritual trainings, and by instinct on my own.  But the fullest level of mirror training I ever got was cleaning the full length mirrors at Bikram yoga.  I took a great video I with my phone camera one night while taking a break, dancing with those mirrors, with newly found parts myself.  I had just come off of a twelve hour day of healthcare work, as I always do before cleaning the studio on Tuesday nights. I love watching that video of me, dancing with my Warrior.  It’s so fun and beautiful to watch.  I can see myself expanding and flying.  We must both try and go for things, and play to clear the way for our spirit’s furthering.  May we clean our mirrors, clear our doorways and soar!?

-Leahanne Woods Smith

The Unplanned Life 

By Dina Tibbs

I sit here, as I do every year in December staring at a dream/goal/life/planner/calendar; I have quite a collection of these planners. Every year I try a different one designed by people I hold in deep respect and made with the intent of helping people realize their dreams, set their soulful goals, balance their work, family, personal and spiritual lives, create the tasks and accountability necessary to make the dreams come true, making sure they pencil in their self-care lest they forget, or as is normally the case, put themselves last.

This year, I am looking at this planner, and feeling a deep resistance, even though I have a blank book and lots of markers in every color of the rainbow. I am looking at a pretty mind map that is supposed to hold my deepest desires for the next 1, 3, 10 years, and my lifetime…all ready to be written down, colored in, and achieved. In this moment I am looking at a planner that asks me to project three years into the future and ask things like:

  • What needs of yours are met by your friendships? How do you engage with your community? How am I nourished? What fascinates you? What conversations do you have?
  • Three years from now? All I can do is sit here and say, I have no fucking idea. While I completely understand the value in doing this for some people, for me going through this exercise is one of three things:

1.     A waste of time…where is my three-year plan from three years ago, that I spent so many hours on? I have no idea; life happened and I am in a completely different place and space.

2.     For the last two years I began my year with the best intentions; shit hit the fan, I was not able to achieve the goals because I needed to be fully present for the situations that were right in front of me. There was no plan, it all went out the window when I had to care for and spend time helping the people I love the most heal. But rather than embrace that and be in service to my beloveds, I stressed, I resented, I resisted. I refused to surrender to it, until the deep and paralyzing anxiety forced me to surrender. It was also the greatest gift in opening my eyes to how I wanted to live life, be present, and be of service.

So this year I am doing something new; I am UNPLANNING, I am embracing the mystery, creating my story as each day presents itself anew. And most importantly, listening deeply and witnessing what my soul wants to bring forth on any given day.

This is not to say I am operating in oblivion, have no dreams, goals, desires, or even dates and deadlines, however, I am being a lot more gentle with myself about how much I choose to take on. As I get older I find my plans becoming much more fluid and flowing. I may write down what I want to do this year and when I want to do it, I set my INTENT with the Creator, and ask every day how I can best be of service to myself and others, and then let the day unfold, with the next day being somewhat of a mystery. It is not lost on me that I am BLESSED to be able to do this, and not everyone can. I can also say that this experiment of letting it go, will be really, really challenging for me…but life is an experiment and I love my life.

Here is the truth as it is for me: the more I PLAN, IE: FORCE the less time I actually have, the less of what and who I want to experience comes into my life, the less of the mystery and the story unfolds. However, if I relax, if I surrender, if I let it flow the more I invite into my sphere of being, the more I am able to manipulate time. 

What can you shift in your perception about life planning, what is really necessary for our souls to be fulfilled, and what isn’t?

I encourage you to get quiet, and ask your true self what will happen if you don’t get it all done? And then witness the answer, it just might surprise you.

Getting In The Gap

By Leahanne Woods Smith

May we trust and fall into the darkness, in the tunnels. We can trust that this river path will lead us to our gift, deeper than we have traveled before, more within.

During meditation we practice finding the stillness. We look for the gap where there is simply existence.  It is the place where there is no thing, but yet it is everything. It is the entrance to the furthering of life. It is life.

I remember last year when I was at a Warrior Goddess weekend. Our group was led by HeatherAsh, the mama of all things Warrior Goddess, to go deeply into meditation. She told us to find the stillness, and follow the stillness.

I had the best feeling discoveries within other worlds within me. I have access to these worlds. I found that I can discover an infinite number of worlds that are there just existing. And, it changes all the time, just as all things. They are always ready to have me. I am a part of all of this existence, all worlds, and so are you. They exist inside us and throughout all existence. We are it, and it is us☀️.

To find that gap in all things is a huge gift to gift ourselves. This is how we align with life. Ever wondered how people survived prison, chronic pain or illness, or acts of extreme violence? Many times it has been reported that these survivors found a place within themselves where life as it is said to be here ran out, and truth began. They sent themselves into the gap, and let themselves fall into true existence inside. I’m sure you’ve heard of people finding Jesus in prison. From then on they are a new brightly centered person giving and receiving love after this happens.

It matters not what path we take to get there. Any gap of silence will lead us to the place of our light and understanding. We can feel it in our heart when we arrive there. From that point we can open ourselves to the world around us and spread this light, turning on other lights, other hearts everywhere. This is pure life extending pure life, bringing to life more parts of ourselves and each other continuously. This is the definition of heaven to me. I extend my hand out everyday to see if I can reach more of it since I have first seen this truth. I reach out to you here by my words on a post. Take this love, feel into it, and spread!

May we align with all things in our life, continuously finding the new love in through the gaps that are produced there, here, and everywhere everyday!

Find the gap! Follow the silence!

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